GUYS Guys guys..... My Favorie Subject!!

Did I mention I was single??  Cuz yeah, I am.  And....I'm "skinny" for the first time since high school.  I actually weigh less now than I did my senior year.  Booyah!
And I'm sorry, when your butt looks like this.....ya gotta flaunt it!!!

LOL....anyways.  I have been dating.  And it has been fun.  The first guy, was just talking, and it was while I was still married technically, and he just became a tird and stopped talking to me, so....moving on to other things. 

Next guy....I'm still not sure what I saw in him, other than attention. 

Casual was the word to describe it.  Occasionally fun.  Still, there was an undeniable spark, and its still tough to see him without feeling silly.

Third guy.....

I met a guy online.  He was really really sweet.  Lived in Austin, and LDS.  We talked a lot.  Went through scenarios of how life would be "if and when" we were married.

We'd planned out our first date, and were trying to set a time good for both of us.

He has 2 kids, and a lot of baggage emotionally, but I was still on board....

Until he stopped talking to me.

SERIOUSLY?!?!?!  Come on guys, buck up and just break up with me, don't just be silent!  GRRRR

And now for the fun part!!  A real live LDS BOY!!!!

Ok, I should back up a few steps.....

Yesterday I had a strong heart to heart with God.  I was clinging on to guy #2 and 3 just because they were there.  Guy 2 was purely a physical being, and it was just leading down a dangerous path....

So I gave it to God.  I asked for patience.  To help me stop SEARCHING for guys, and just be able to be calm, and wait. 

Wow..  all I can say is wow.  He answered my prayer a few hours later.

I went to my church's scripture study for the singles, and I started talking to a few guys.  Normally I don't think anything about this.  Just making friends.  We all went out for a bite afterward, and had a blast.  One of the guys I was talking to sat by me and we talked one on one a lot, and touched knees and little giddy stuff like that.

Another guy was super sweet and paid for my meal (scrambled eggs and cheese!!).

The guy who sat beside me (guy #4) hung out in the parking lot afterwards, and we talked for like an hour.

About anything and everything. 

About temple marriages, about sin and forgiveness, about my weight loss surgery, about what we like and dislike in relationships...

He asked at first, "so when are we gonna go out?" and I said,...."um, when you ask me?"

So we set up a date.  Then talked.

I thought that was the end of the night when he said he had to go get to bed. 

We texted a few times, and had a few sweet comments back and forth.

He decided to come over, and we hung out a few hours more.  :)

We shared some nice kisses, and cuddles.  We played Uno a few dozen times, and he totally kicked my butt.  It was a really really surprising end to the day, and a sweet first date.

God truly immediately blessed me when I gave up my guy #2 "addiction" and he gave me a good LDS boy.  :)

OK, you ready for it??

When I went into work today, the guy who paid for my meal was there, and asked me out.



Unfortunately, it was for the same night I already had a date.

So, what do I do?  Do I date both?  Do I become exclusive with someone I've had one date with?
I'm a month+ out from my divorce....I wanna shop around, but I also don't wanna hurt anyone.
So, I told my current guy about potential guy, and vice versa....
And with their reactions, and some thought, I came to the conclusion, that I need to see where this thing with Guy #4 leads.

I'd asked him what church was gonna be like this Sunday, and he said that we would sit by each other, and people would talk, and then he'd be like "what?  we're gonna get out of the singles branch before you!  :P   "  LOL  So, I'm totally looking forward to church now!!!


Speaking of guys in my life.........
My ex-husband and I saw each other on web cam for the first time in months.  I'd seen him, but not heard him, back in maybe June.  I hadn't heard his voice since April.
It was very very interesting.....
Its amazing how different the same conversation can come across differently over IM verses webcam.
We talked like 3 hours.  It was really nice.  I missed him.  He was, and is, still my best friend, and it sucks not talking to him.   I was really happy getting to talk to him, but afterward, stuff started to sink in, and it put me in a weird mood.  Guess its to be expected.


Well, ok, update on my weight loss progress.  I hit a speed bump when my family came in to town, which I knew would happen....
I'd gotten down to 210 when they came, and hovered at it +1 or 2 lbs for a few days.
Now I got back on track, and I hit 209!!  Single digits!!  In 2 lbs, i'll have lost 100 lbs.
in 10 lbs i'll be in ONE-der-land!!!

While mom was here, I tried on everything I owned, and got rid of 10 large trashbags worth of clothes that were too big.  This is in addition to the 2 HUGE piles I'd been adding to since the beginning.
So yay!  I'm in an 18 now.  20's are WAY baggy, and 16's are too tight, but they close!
Hooray!  I'm happy to see results!

Lots of Changes Since Last Post

Well, I apologize for my lack of posting.  I guess I didn't know how much or what exactly to share.  It's been 2 months since my husband dropped the divorce bomb on me. 
We've had many highs and lows since then, but have sort of evened out, and settled down.
We are getting a divorce.  It will be finalized Aug 18th.  I know it seems fast, but there's a few reasons behind it. 
Since this began, I started school.  The summer session started in June, and I'm taking 2 classes.  It's been tougher than I expected.  I chose online so I could get a job, and I'm not great at keeping up with reading.

I got a job, yay!!  I work at a local Wal Mart.  I really enjoy it.  The biggest problem is being on my feet the whole time.  The 8 hour shifts are the worst.  My foot has healed significantly since losing so much weight, but I think this is making me regress.  So, I'm trying to get in to see the podiatrist before I lose my insurance.

Church is going steady and strong.  I started having the missionaries come weekly to sort of go through the discussions with me again, and it has been so nice having their spirit in my home.  They even started doing service projects for me.  They helped me do yard work, and pulled up all the linoleum in my kitchen and bathroom, and laid down peel and stick!  It looks so great!
Just 2 days ago, I cooked a big "thank you" feast for em.  I made my famous sugar cookies, and even the health conscious one had a half dozen HERE!  :D

My weight loss has hit a bit of a snag.  I haven't had time or drive to exercise or walk in the mornings, and I've been eating candy and crap.  I'm to blame, and I'm not surprised I'm not losing.....
in fact, I'm kind of gaining.  UGH. 

I Hit my personal goal of 235....
It was the weight I'd put on my military ID back in 2005, and it was a lie back then, and has been ever since.  I ALMOST attained it when I did weight watchers, but not quite, so YAY!!
I continued to drop and actually saw the 220's for one day, and then it came back.
As of this morning, I'm at 234.  But I threw away the crap I'd brought in the house, and am trying to start fresh.
I honestly don't know why I eat candy and crap.  It makes my stomach feel awful the second I swallow, but it doesn't stop me.  It's an addiction, and the more I eat it, the worse it gets.

I had my 10 year high school reunion last month.  It was so great.  My goal had been to lose 50 lbs by then, and I was at 75!!  I fit into a size 16 dress, and felt not fat!  LOL!!

I'm on the left in the blue.

I had so much fun, and was so glad I went!!!

I was able to fit in to my prom dress too!  Here's the original pic, and the current pic!

In other news, I have been training my big dogs to not have to go in their cages when I'm at work.  I hated the idea of them being confined for long periods every day, and now they get to stretch and play and sleep on the bed or couches. 

They've been doing so great.  I try and leave a bone out for them, so they have something to chew on, instead of looking for something to chew on.

The only bad thing they've gotten into, was like day 2, the cats pulled out the rubber mouth opening to the garbage disposal, and Tink chewed it into a thousand pieces.  But, that was my fault sort of, because I normally put the sink stopper plug in it cuz I know the cats are obsessed with it.



Well, I'm gonna wrap up.  Things between me and the "hubby" are amicable.  We've talked at length about why this is happening, and some of it is my fault.  I was in a bad place for a long time.  Psysically, mentally, spiritually, emotionally, and he slowly fell out of love with me, and began to resent me.  I keep trying to tell him that the current me, is 180* different, but its too late. 
So, all I can do is continue to work on me, to better me, and to prepare for the future.

I'll try and update more often again.  LOVE YOU ALL!!!